A new beginning

So today is suppose to be a new beginning for me, quitting smoking is not as easy as I thought it should be.
Had my last ciggie at 11pm last night. Woke up and the only thing on my mind was smoking, little voices going off in my head weighing up the pros and cons if I should light up again. The Zyban treatment says you should set your quit date in the second week of taking it, I am only on day four, that seems enough motivation to carry on smoking, but that is the smoker in me saying that, the wanna be non-smoker in me says, you set your quit date today, you going to stick to it.

So I've got 2 pieces of my mind playing up against each other, to smoke or not to.

This morning I woke up did the normal rituals before I headed out of the door, this is about 5:30am, usually I have a cigarette as I get to the car, this morning I had cadbury dairy milk chocolate, I mean chocolate at 5:30am, is that normal? Once I was on the road my mind started wondering again and that evil little voice telling me to light up, I resisted. As I pulled up to work the craving became unbearable, I stuffed my mouth with some more chocolate.

I get to the office only to find out it is corporate day and nobody informed me and that we are having a lunch meeting at The Pepper Chair in Centurion today. Although I don't eat there, it is a pub like environment and my boss smokes, It is going to be hell I tell ya, hell.

Today my trainees are writing a test which I have to mark and submit to their managers, hopefully they perform better than the last group I had, I can only hope.

Insha-Allah everything will go well today and Jumuah Mubarak to one and all. Enjoy the rest of the day.